Turmoil

There are those of us whom are warriors living life in solitude. Those of us surpassed by the oblivious until its convienient for them, however they never SEE us. They want the outside they want what the see in us as freedom forever looking past the pain and anguish that befalls us and comprises our lives. We fight their wars, battles, take insults, live oppressed and dwell in the shadows. Is this the path, my destiny, my future. ?????

two days before elijah's bday

Yet another day has been ruined for one reason or another. And having to act like i'm okay with it. It's always at the expense of me seeing my daughter..... i'm sick of this b ullshit.. I'm Sick of the pain... I'm sick OF trusting When I'm it's been for nothing....... Now a lil daughter not able to neglect put in the past of retrospect and regret.
My heart aches at the loss of my son in my life on a daily basis. TRUST is overrated...
I cant stand feeling like an empty shell any longer................ i dont want to cry anymore.. elijah i haven't seen you in over two years.. i die more everyday!