An addicts cry for redemption

Today I sit and watch the clouds flow thru the sky, as I'm day 3 clean and sober, I want to get high. I want love I want solitude, I don't want pain I just want to cry. Escape thru self medication, escape thru loss of self and meditation, have and can obtain them both at present anytime I choose, now I fight for life and my own to not lose, for that which belongs not to me, I must live so my childen elijah 6 almost seven, and born tomorrow , daughter lilly will be able to see!

Eternal sin!

I have bathed in eternal sin, I have traveled up one road and back down again, cocaine and midnight dreams, easy money and splendor, none which it seems, no one to guide, no one to receive love, forever walking away from that one above, from sweats to fasts, to afternoon delight, searching again for that whom or might be right, denying myself and endulging my desire, hoping at once to quench my own fire, to stay clean now is a dream a goal I hope to obtain, its only me now first I must maintain. Ramble and rant vent and rage, I'm done with this shit , watch out world I've unlocked my own cage!

Osiris

Today I rise from the ashes, viewed by smirks and ones with two colored sashes, internal unrest, fake friends with glocks and a vest, those who want to fight, my fight for child to envoke my right, somewhere on the path I was hit and lost my sight. Today I read just now while its hot in my town of 11 years now, Denver. A police officer was shot. Has it all changed. I hear the cries looked up two F 15's just soared thru the skies. Still can't stop the voices or the shrieks in the night. Tomorrow my daughter named lilly is born,

A new path to get right!