An addicts cry for redemption

Today I sit and watch the clouds flow thru the sky, as I'm day 3 clean and sober, I want to get high. I want love I want solitude, I don't want pain I just want to cry. Escape thru self medication, escape thru loss of self and meditation, have and can obtain them both at present anytime I choose, now I fight for life and my own to not lose, for that which belongs not to me, I must live so my childen elijah 6 almost seven, and born tomorrow , daughter lilly will be able to see!